thoughts--im about to kill myself

spinninn--"take me away"- fefe dobson

cravin--goin to sizzler

okay i haven't blogged in hella lolz....hehe....my asian is goin away..>!.....lolz....hehe...anyways...okay monday i had a pretty fast day n tuesday was hella boring  cause that day went pretty fast...then on wednesday thats when all this shit started.....HELLA PPL TALKIN SHIT N IF THEY R READING THIS THEY KNOW WHO THE FUCc THEY R ...its like she won't even stop talkin shit n she had the fucCIn balls to go up to chris n tell him "u need to dump ur girlfriend because she is a slutty ass bitch"....omg ...i don't even say shit n she has the fucCin nerve....i don't say any shit about her.....i swear to god....wow...i told step team cause that night we perofrmed n hella ppl r on my side on this shit...they said they will always b on my side....THANKX GUYS....neways....forget'n about the DRAMA....yesterday i got in this hella bad shit between chris but we worked it out n now he's giving me space...i love him so much....tomorrow i have practice from 8 TO 10.......ARGH!....I HAVE TO FUCciN WAKE UP HELLA EARLY.... good lord.....whatever...its what u get for bein committed.....next friday its a holiday n imma cill with AL again....hehe...o yeah by the way i did hella good on my english soliloquy...or however u spell it....n also....FOR ALL THOSE PPL WHO R READING THIS N I KNOW THAT PERSON STARTS DRAMA N STARTS SHIT ABOUT ME.....I HOPOE U KNOW THAT IT DOESN'T AFFECT ME SO KEEP GOIN BITCH!...BRING IT ON!.....KEEP SAYIN SHIT ALL U WANT....IT DOESN'T AFFECT ME...HAHAHAHAHAHA!.......LOSER!...STUPID BITCH!

that felt good...hehe....cause i have hella ppl on my side with this bitch

thoughtz--aggrivated

spinnin-- "numb:- linkin park

cravin-- ice cream to cool me off

okay today i woke up early to go to my ortho cause i wanted to get there early cause i was convinced they were gonna come off..i was convinced wrong....i got there early n i there was this lady who was bitch'n about everythin...i hella wanted to slap her.....then finally after 45 minutes they called me in..BUT THEY SAID THEY WEREN'T FUCcIN COMIN OFF.... all they did was change my wire....fuccin bitches!.....i was all "well..u said they were gonna come off next time n u said that the appointment b4 that....so why do u keep making promises u can't keep..."...n they were hella speechless for a sec n they finally were all we promise fo real that they will come off next month in 6 weeks..."....n his assisstant was hella agreein with me that they should come off cause i hella wore my fucCin rubber bands hella for nothin....I FUCcIN HATE BRACES.....

n im not even heated casue of this.....then we drove to the city n like i did the game n shit.....then i spent hella time arguin with my mom about how we don't have a life n how we live so far because she wouldn't stop bitchin at the fact im always takin over saturdays ....BITCH DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO FUCciN TRICK!....IT WASN'T MY FUCcIN CHOICE TO LIVE IN GOD DAMN HERCULES N MY FUCcIN LIFE IS ALL FUCc'D UP BECASUE OF U....FUCc U BITCH DON;T COMPLAIN.......c everyone....these r the words i hella want to tell my mom.....but i can't cause it doesn't get through her god damn head....like no one understands what the fucC i have to put up with every fucCIn day....n like jess, danielle, n i can;t wait until we save enough money to rent an apartment in the city n we all fucCIn want to get away from our fucC'd up families cause no one knows what the fucC we have to put up with....shit!...im hella angry.....god damn.....i wish i argued more but i couldn't....caus ei still wan hang out with ppl this weekend....but iono,.....i just hope so.....

well....the only good shit that happened was that i bonded more with al n chris placed third in his tournament...thats so tight.....n fuck that bitch who;s gonna comment on this later...pc!....imma try n cool down